me mee meee

2007-07-11T00:54:00.000+08:00

Moved. http://uninstallhate.blogspot.com/

Long since I last blog. Decided to start afresh a new blog. Shall start posting once i done up the template

Meee

2007-03-29T22:15:00.000+08:00

Since some time since I last posted, apart from the job i still doing. Was happy i got myself some things I wanted. Wallet, new pair of shoes especially. Hehe...
Oh and I also got myself a pair of dumbells. Starting exercising since I got the pair of dumbells, well no more excuses to NOT exercise and PLENTY of reasons for me to trim down. So ya... shall see how far i can go in another 4 months time...

Saying doesn't change anything. Doing is.

2007-02-13T23:57:00.000+08:00

Haha... quite some time since i last posted. Despite the fact that i DID say will post more frequently. Anyway, work is getting more routine to me. which is good and bad in a way as I don't think 1 can find a perfect job anyway. Anyway, getting more health consious now, tend to get care of my diet and my habits for now... will have to slowly change so hope that within this year, you might see some changes to me. It's not going to be a easy thing anyway, with desires and temptations to curb or to reduce. So i not expecting a drastic change to happen rather but a slower one.

Anyway, cheers to all who celebrating V day tml... when will I find mine? Hmmm
*think think think think think...* =D

2007-01-18T22:35:00.000+08:00

Wee~~ Got a new phone today. But I didnt get myself one of the latest phones for now- SE phone W810I . Reason being I find it more balanced. Didnt want to get a nokia phone anymore and other SE phones I don't find it tt balance. Only setback is the phone not WMA supported. Means I need to convert to MP3 before putting into the phone. W850 does the trick...but saw alot complains abt the D pad easily cracked...sighz.. Anyway cheers to my new phone....Haha.. can slowly play with this phone for quite some time..

2007-01-14T21:04:00.000+08:00

Day: Sunday
Feeling: Lost

Not sure why I am feeling lost. Maybe i was telling myself to study up notes for my work but haven started. Bleahz... thats why i am blogging now.. =/
Realise that my room is in quite a mess. And realise i need to reorganise my room to make it more study/work efficient.. But the thing is that my room isnt that big. So having a headache now....

So maybe my goal for this coming week(only got approx 4 hrs free time when working) is to try to tidy up my roomand meanwhile find a solution to solve my problem. How should I reorganise my room? Thats the biggest challenge for now....

Oh ya I upgraded my broadband speed too. The speeds compare to what i have is amazing.... And the best part is its only a 9-12 mth contract... I can have a better plan after tt hopefully...
Guess thats about it for now...

2007-01-08T21:41:00.000+08:00

Answering calls loh!!! Haha... Its only 2 hours and how tired I haven become. What's more tomorrow is the whole package: Solo and 8 hours. Omg omg... feel like going to send myself to the execution grounds tml.... But its still not that bad...realise army DO help. Just have to think is anything worse than that and wala! Its not as bad =/ That's it for now... still disappointed at the net speeds.. when will it get faster?!?!

2007-01-07T03:19:00.000+08:00

Haha here I am... Again! Just remembered after I ORD didn't really say write anything so here i am again. This 2 years in army really has alot of memories. Excluding Tekong for 2 months, 1 year and 10 months I am at 35SCE, selatar camp. Well the 22 months exclude offs/leaves especially my long clearing before ord. Hahahahaha... All and all, I had a wonderful experience. Well, if I said everyday is pleasant, I am a darn bad lier. =/ Lets just say overall its stll not bad. Went through numerous events in camps, went through several weekends in camp(weekend duty and misc.. Only 1 confinement in my 2 yrs thou haha).
But time really flies. Just remember the first day in 35, I actually walk for half an hour to my unit and was actually horrified. Walking time is gay long can? Only to find out the RPs there were alot of a 'great help' on my first day. Only 5 mins to reach my unit...Dot dot dot...And the worse is not over.. the bunk condition is quite bad that time, but after they change the beds a few months later it was actually quite good. First year was quite funky for me, went to course in sembawang (5 mins travelling time from my home. How jealous was I?) Went back to be a temp armskoteman..thkz bob for that -.- ... Only to be a temp store ic for 3 months... before I hand back and prepare for stocktake and LRI - the busiest time of a logistician and the most fun time now I think of it. Haha... When things suddenly disappear and you have to find it back...by all means and I really meant ALL means. hahaha...
2nd year was even faster. Went recourse in 35. Was quite bad at first till I fed up and source a way through my superior. Happilly attached back to my unit and spend about half of the time instead of the full thingy. Hehe.. thet left me no choice thou. Went back store for awhile before I complete my last commitments and leave it for future generations to go.. Haha..
But the most memorable event would be AHM, quite tiring but the satisfaction is there =) not to mention the gay vertical marathon. Early in the morning go climb suntec tower 40+ storeys for a croc plushie. Haha.. Kind of stupid now i think of it... Bleahz..
So much things for 2 years... but thats enough already, anymore I would be cursing and swearing now... Back to a civillian life where I will not wear green everyday. Cheers to my pink ic... Haha..

the 3am post.

2007-01-07T02:55:00.000+08:00

Its 3am in the morning. Guess I have been sleeping too much in the afternoon =/ Well guess that's fine with me. The only time i can afford not to sleep early are times I am not working so it should be a good thing with me. Haha..
But not sleeping early is not exactly a good thing. Mixed feelings of all sorts are flowing back to me again. Questions of "If only" but not exactly can be done. If only time turned back.. If only I didn't slack that time... If only I had done that.. If only I had made a different choice... That's why sometimes I hate the past. The past has already past. What is left is the present and the future. That is also what keeps me going. No point holding on to the past and clinging to it like chewing gum.
Well, guess that's enough of the 'emo' thingy for now. Anymore and I would be pinning for the past again. >_<

Believe in oneself.

Work update

2007-01-05T20:22:00.000+08:00

Updates! updates! haha... ok think i never exactly write about my job yet. Currently working at bedok, technopark chai chee in dbs contact centre. Haha... not bad the pay and mostly handle internet related stuff. And next week finally starting on job training liao... haha..
So lets hope i can go on with the job for the next half a year... haha...

But not everything in life is a straight path. I don't really open up to people alot so i guess I am hiding under masks at work for now... unless u know me well to rip off a good few layers of skin under me haha. Anyway, I guess since its shift basis, once the shift starts, most likely its solo also... so i guess most of them i will just maintain colleague status...

Happy new year!

2007-01-04T22:19:00.000+08:00

2 months since i last posted. And there is ALOT of changes. So this post is more of updating than blogging. Shall do up the updates first, wanted to change blog skin.. but couldn't find a better one that I have currently. So shall stick to this old one then. Change some of the contents though..

Changes to my life:
1. I am a NSman. I now hold back my pink ic!
2. I am now working. Currently I am a Customer Service Officer (Training) [ Sounds professsional but yup you are right. It SOUNDS professional only. Haha...]
3. I applied for SIM -banking and finance. Sounds interesting to me. At least better than engineering. Wish me luck man.
4. New year, new resolutions. Got my resolutions for this year. Then again, fulfilling how much is another thing.

OK, so thats not alot... >_< Seems so much had happened and when listing down, blah.... so little... Will try to update more often if i can. Depending on what things happened.

AD 2007. Time flies.

aaabbb where is the c?

2006-11-30T02:31:00.000+08:00

Clearing Offs and Leaves.

Next friday shall be the day i get my ic back. 2 years of my life. That's fast mmm.... Somehow feeling so down now. Applying for sim banking and finance, trying to get a job thats what i wanna do for now. So many things to think of and yet still so many things bottled inside me. Sighz...

Feel like pouring out what is inside me.

2006-09-08T07:45:00.000+08:00

Overtime.

What a busy week. Lucky monday was my birthday and need not come. Tuesday and Wednesday almost kill me. I literally work all the way till 8 plus 9 without even finding much time to catch a wink. Yesterday even went to paya lebar again to settle the comp stuff. Kind of need a break so requested for me come in slightly later to work. So here i am. Haha...

Even though i have been through 1 stocktake but this time i am in charge of my store. Old bird or experienced if thats what you call. But most likely i will be handing over after stocktake ends.
I managed to plan out my clearing already. WA! I have no need to take extra off. Just claim my offs they own and get my stocktake off think its enough. Haha...

Time to stop. Looking forward to the day i clear...

O......
OR.......
ORD~~~~~~

2006-09-04T07:35:00.000+08:00

Year 20. Day 1.

19 years of my life has past. Short it isn't. Long neither. Advancing to the 20th year, kind of feeling sian suddenly. A day that doesn't have too much significance yet how I hope someone will remember it.A day with only 24 hours yet how i hope it can be as meaningful as it can be. Guess thats life. That's human behaviour. How you don't wished for it yet also wished for it. Ironic i guess. Lets hope that what i don't wished for yet wished for will happen.

0409

2006-08-31T00:30:00.000+08:00

UpdateZ for the week!

What a week. SO much things happened since the last updates. On a side note, heat rashes recovered when i finished course and returned back to camp. Such a relief i did not went for the shoot, if not it might get worse. Was preparing for Army Half Marathon till friday and we went to padang on sat for the setting up of the area.

Reach padang about 2pm. Thats the time give to us. Haha...not in camp le loh.. Out comes my camera hp and mp3 player. Uploaded 'tian tian ye ye' by F.I.R for my new ringtone. So pleased with that. Work started the moment we were gathered. Started off with moving of tables and unloading of goodie bags to pack. Things start getting out of hand, we were kind of doing stuff we need not do and not doing stuff we supposed to do. Confusing? Details i'm leaving them out, just leave it as that. After that we all loaded up to a 5 ton and went off to load barricades. OMG that was a horror. WE saw water barricades..Nope! Yellow barricades roughly same size as water...Nope Too! SIlver barricades slightly longer than yellow? Wrong either! WE were ask to bring red and yellow coloured barricades that had their paint fading to load UP! Argh, did i mention they were the longest and heaviest? Plus we only had roughly 20 people to load 80 of them which needs minimum 4 vehicles (5 ton) to load? Ya that took quite long to load and unload and we finish ard 6+ i think?

Went doing more of unnecessary stuff and that extended our promised time to rest from 6 to 8.30. Nevertheless, i was looking forward to the rest. Partly the break i needed and most importantly the FOOD. So hungry...Was telling wei xiang if possible i want ice mocha to chill myself and the caffeine to keep me awake. Well i had it all right. We went raffles shopping centre ( is it what it is called? the one near city hall mrt? ) for BK and after that went marketplace buy snacks before chilling at cafe cartel. Wei xiang, eddie, victor, merv had beer. I had what i wanted, mocha. Haha...i seldom drink so even though i think i will be sober still i don't wanna risk. Anyway still not tt used to its taste. >_<

Anyway, went back at around 10.30 to continue working. We really worse than labour workers sia. Underpaid and limited water and food. So we did non stop till 6am (Details omitting, chills me out just thinking of it) and had a 1 hr rest. After that we did goodie bag distribution. Thats when i turn into a recording machine. 'Morning sir, can you please show me ur tag? hold on..here is it..have a nice day' ...Ya you get the idea...Good thing is got some 'faces' to see. Haha..that at least up morale abit and it feels good for them to greet back courteously. Satisfaction....haha even saw my juniors. pjc odac ppl. Already miss school...Haha. Everything finished abt 4pm after clearing the area. Immediately concuss at home from 5 to 12am and slept back till 6 again.
It never end yet thou. We finished storeruns to return store till today so not very relax. Good thing is we get to rest for a long weekend. Plus i birthday in monday. So long weekend for me. Gonna have a good rest...

A thump in my heart. A blink of my eyes. Really hoping for you to appear. Wish I may. WIsh I might. May the star guide me through the way to your heart.

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2006-08-23T00:42:00.000+08:00

WA?!

Hasnt update for a week ( i think so ), so in between had quite some things happen. Didn't went for atp, reason being the day before cohesion day running + basketball kena heat rash, itchy itchy till i cannot take it liao so reported sick for heat rash. Think this is the second time i got heat rashes, first time was after field camp in bmt, but that wasnt so bad compare to this time.

Last saturday was a waste in the morning, went back camp supposedly do some ahm preparations.. )*(Q#%_#*^)_@#^(& ~~~ In the end we sat there waiting for the cargo to realise the transport was well equiped. We need not do any manual labour.. crap lobster...which was good thou, lobang eddy's car back. Sia la... he first time bring car to camp...ord personnel is like tt de...haha.
Went to New York New York at night to celebrate charlene belated bday. HAd quite many ppl going, total of 8. And chee really slim quite abit from bmt... He is hoping to be a int offcr. Wish him luck, not tt i not concerned...just tt i want ord liao...dun care so much also le... lol =p

Then past 2 days went for es course. Blur wei ming..told him bus 90 liao...gei zhua...go back gate... in the end still wrong entrance....haha but at least go to course from same camp oso quite good. If not the course will BORE me to death. Crappy course. Oh ya saw my old fren from pri sch also, in same camp but i seldom talk to him de. Then we will sit at the back twang haha =D

Went to ang mo kio after fall out to see tenchi HQ. 1 word. 'WA~~' knn so big sia....i see the books like oO SO MUCH. I WANNA READ but kind of budget constraint. Think will go rent mostly... like tt can read more...wakakaka but wil only go when got time. amk lei...quite far... some more now no time go also ... sobz T_T

Now Feeling: Tired, exhausted, shag, sleepy, eyes closing, u get the idea...kun loh~

Hmm

2006-08-15T21:52:00.000+08:00

Hiya~ Today went for dental FFI at nee soon camp!!! Hahahaha feel so happy...finally its my turn... Met up with shahiman at cwp and went there tgt. Same ord date of cuz muz go tgt..muahahaha~ Shun bian fix up a date this thurs at AH to settle my wisdom tooth. Haha...have to remove sooner or later so go remove loh..saf paying plus MC...haha

Gonna be very busy soon...going for ATP, combo with AHM preparation and combo with storework.. Wa~~~ a-du-gen!!! =D

2006-08-01T21:44:00.000+08:00

August the First. Nothing special to me. Just wanna count down to my pink ic... Hee...
So fast left 4 months in the army. Counting down, been in my camp for almost 1 and a half yrs...officers come officers go. Specialist come specialists go. Man come man go. What a process. Seen alot of changes in my camp already, can be considered lao jiao loh haha. But 1 thing has never been change, the longing to go off also. And the time is coming nearer le. Dental and medical FFI has already been scheldule. Heee means i got 2 less things to worry liao. However, kind of getting tired of this lifestyle, ord mood is coming. People go people come, new batch of people is generally ok. Only a couple of black sheeps that spoil the market. Not tt i care much since this month is my last duty. Plus store got people to hand over le. Sigh haven settle my storework yet thou. Sad thing is haven settle my uni yet. Not good not good....how sia....SIM or SMU? most likely sim ba....almost feel like i made my decision in jc on a wrong mindset. Need to rectify it now. Cannot make a decision harshly. Yup. TT reminds me... I need go run more le...getting back to square one. =p I need exercise! oh ya which reminds me...will be climbing 45 storeys this thurs oh yeah~

Daijobu~ I need a real life!

2006-07-18T20:35:00.000+08:00

Heya... Yday did some counting down, realised my last duty will be next month...woot~ tts fast man...haha. Next 3 months will be tough, with AHM preparation, stocktake, LRI and tons of stupid paperwork to be done~ blah. Thankz godness my understudy came, even though he is my by 'left' understudy but hu cares...Haha.... Gonna be a tuff time~

Twirling minds~

updates

2006-07-02T20:27:00.000+08:00

Well, guess its time i wrote something here. To syncronise with what i been through since the last update. Recourse ended quite some time ago, 3 weeks ago estimated. But what lies after that seem like real headache for me. I took over my store as store IC and the paperwork i need to do... seem that i still got alot to go. Blah~ tomorrow i on duty, shall use that period to plan my schedule again I shall endure till the next store IC comes..Hopefully in 2 weeks time or the start of third week.
Hmmm bad news again or rather I hadn't had too much hopes in the 1st place. Ntu nus dun wan me. Guess i am left with sim and smu...but more likely i wan to go to sim. Smu seems quite ok too but oh well....Hope fate is helping me thou. Now that in this stage, I couldnt go win it but had to ask for it. Rather pathetic eh?
Hmmmm guess thats the update huh? These 2 things are preoccupying me alot for now and guess other things doesn't seem to matter anymore.

Trying to forget the past and move towards the future.. 159 days to go.....

bad days

2006-05-28T19:21:00.000+08:00

Been ages since i blog, feeling very troubled cuz of admissions..Uncertain wad to do about it. Sigh~ Shall wait for sim and smu to try. When will this burden get off my chest?
Anyway 12 more days to end of course, and the bad thing? Ages ago, they didn't record my field camp records. Shall wait for the admin spec to tell me 1st or if not i think i will complain since it doesn't affect my unit. Let this nightmare be over soon... >_<
Hmmm....back is still the same, 12 more days before i see specialist again( siam the whole pop parade) Hehe.. But lets hope its nothing to serious and hope there is a proper diagnosis this time.
My resolutions are falling apart. What can i do?

hmmm

2006-05-01T18:52:00.000+08:00

Hmm... Definitely a better week last week. Manage to skip 1 week of recourse, cuz went back to my own company for attachment and a long weekend too. Something i will not enjoy for weeks to come. But i going back today again , as a chao cpl. Will try my best to go thru it, cuz tts e feedback i received. Wonder what will be the mentality support for this another 6 weeks?

2006-04-23T19:15:00.000+08:00

Hmmm..think its been quite some time since last post. Reason being maybe just being too tired.. All the odd sleeping and waking up timings, all the hiccups in camp, just too tired. Haha...lets hope next week will be better than last week. Thats the only thing i wished for now.

2006-04-02T19:59:00.000+08:00

What a week i had. Gonna cramp some of my thoughts in this post. Basically, 1st thing that is going to happen, bmt recourse for me. I thought i was going back to tekong but ended up in own camp. Got its pros and cons after giving deep thoughts, but still dunno what is going to happen. Guess sometimes i very anxious de. =p

And guess what? Engineer week next week, means i cannot give myself sometime to do what i wanna do before being busy for 2 months. Blah, the offs better be good....Oh ya i finally promoted to cpl, which what i wanted was the extra 70 allowance. Haha, got more money who dun want nor, can buy more stuff le... Yup Yup...

Thats abt the stuff in camp, another thing in my mind is uni now, apply also apply liao, now can only wait. If cannot, i trying smu and sim. I must continue to walk down the path. This time, i must set myself not to fall down again for stupid reasons. Not worth the reason to fall again, so hope the turning point still exists for me.

Fri, sat and sun did quite alot of stuff le.. Watch finish my drama, went to sunshine to look at anime stuff but nothing i wanted. Went beach road to buy some recourse stuff i needed, and had a good meal outside before i started missing them. Play jyonline, had a little fun playing gb yday, thkz to kelv haha somehow i dunno how but he manage to start it so we play for quite awhile. Quite nolstagic hehe... But realised i still got some stuff need to do, need visit the comic shop at yishun to find 1 certain comic I might buy, wanna go down to e korean shop to buy some snacks somewhere near sim lim, wanna go down boon lay see the breadtalk there got the rumoured melon bread i wanna try, wanna have a gd gd gd break which probably i can fulfill only 1 which is the visit to yishun only. Haha.. Think thats about it for now, if not i gonna write a whole list of items! =D Maybe next post i will write abt the recourse pray is good stuff...

2006-03-26T21:22:00.000+08:00

Sunday.
Boring Day.

Spent my sunday at home watching shen diao and playing jy, basically nothing to interesting. I getting more bored at home recently. Maybe too many things in my mind so i carn be bother to do much. Really scare now, will I get into uni? Althou sometimes i behave like i dun care, but i really do bother abt it. Thats what ppl meant when they say ur actions and ur speech dun coincide? haha...

But i did go somewhere yday, haha went sun plaza with william drink coffee bean..pro-ness right? haha..Den i show him the show also...hehe think the girl hu act quite pretty..liu yi fei... but she wear those gu3 zhuan1 then nice, yup yup tt is very true haha.

Gonna end here...may the next post be more fruitful for me =)

2006-03-12T21:11:00.000+08:00

Been sometime i blog, yday apply for nus liao, but documents think next week then send. Kind of tired for my sat and sun. Dunno y also, just feel like doing nothing. But weekdays was good. Watch anime on wed and fri went ps. Saw kelly there...hmmm i not exactly idol her la but feel that she has some standards so is worth it buying her album. Haha...short blog again this time...still got something i need to sort out 1st...

Anzai anzai huai ting!

2006-03-07T21:39:00.000+08:00

Woot, these few days getting troubled again. Applied for ntu on sat gonna apply nus this sat. One of the things i set to do this year, i must pray hard!

2006-02-25T00:40:00.000+08:00

Sigh its weekend but i not exactly feeling too happy. Well, i certainly is glad it is the weekend or i will be more sian. Maybe its because i started on another drama, and i guess its not exactly a good choice. Kind of feel sad for the chars. Not exactly a new show, called My Beloved. Not exactly a sad show but not exactly a comedy either....guess its errr...romance drama. Ya just a romance drama. Why i sy not a good choice? Cuz i dun even know what it is. Haha ironic? I guess so too. Before that i was thinking about 2 words that makes sense to me. Liking someone and wanting someone? Which one was i after in the beginning? Just when i thought and concluded I like someone in the beginning, but somehow the feelings is still there but the type of feeling left is not just the liking anymore, its to want also. Er what do i mean? It just mean i still like someone, but the type of feeling is somehow gone. Get it? Nevermind if u dun, i dun get it either =s But now some parts of me is still not convinced about it. I just dun get it. Its so complicated.
P.S. I not talking about a person in general. Just generally talking about how i response to relationships. I just dun have the courage anymore =(

2006-02-22T21:20:00.000+08:00

Being some time since i post, thats because recently juz nothing much i feel like blogging also, life getting routine. So quite some stuff to talk now haha =D These few days i am feeling very tired for no reason, the more i sleep the more tired i am =s oh no i am turning into a sleeping pig haha. Think i need 1 time high recharge on my 'batt'. hmmm....
Oh ya, recently got urge to try melon bread, melon bread is a traditional jap bread or so i heard. Anyway thats the effect of watching anime (Yakitate Japan!!) haha just wanna try it. Heard orchard and jp got so gonna try my luck on the shops soon.
But not too soon thou, cuz i this week recall manning week, dang gonna stay at home grrrr....till evening of cuz if not activated must pray hard!!!
Think thats about it...the rest shall be kept within me till i figure out my thoughts..so many stuff on my head now..so headache~

If you ask for a time limit for my love, i shall give you a watch that has stopped for time will stop for you.

v day

2006-02-14T21:44:00.000+08:00

Gonna do a quick post... Bought kelly album today! wahaha i waited long for it and its quite good..serious haha glad i bought it. But took me some trouble also, went to cwp 2 times just to get it. But also saw cwp in 2 parts today haha. Early v day and late v day. Early was still ok..saw alot students and 2ndpart was horriblegibledeble...=D many people queuing up at restaurants..i mean come on lah..if u have the heart, find yourself a quiet place, might not be shopping centres or book if possible. Letting someone queue for hours abit not good nia. K end of post, happy v day to all!!!

2006-02-12T00:46:00.000+08:00

Very shag these few days and will be shag for the next 2 days too. Last thurs was bazaar night, so we had a food stall prepared selling finger food.And the most amazed thing? our food sold out in 15 mins time! Haha that was super fast. But y so tired that day is we can only leave after a movie is shown finished. Dunno wad show was that but is a those gory shows sian half. Fri went to NE visit at bikit chandu. Ulu place but lucky arron 'longpang' me there. Went there and we sneak out at 3.Yeah~ But not bad lah..get to know some history of singapore. almost like school field trip haha.
The the official shag reason: I went to help my cousin prepare roses to sell on valentine's day. Took off on mon (tues camp got stuff carn take off) and these 3 days will go his house prepare. Roses are pretty but their thorns hurt. haha but ok la its a very good experience. Never know when will it come in handy one day =p
Not gonna blog much liao. Pretty tired. Attached below is one nice pic i took. If someone gave you those? what will you feel? =p

2006-02-07T21:51:00.000+08:00

Sian day today, took time off in the afternoon to collect back hp which i went service. Cuz i didn't bring my mmc card and batt along, in the end at home i realise my internal camera has a dot inside..zzz... have to go service again liao...kaoz..
Anyway this thurs is bazaar night, so that means wun be coming back home. Wonder will what they selling turn up good? Hmm...

060206

2006-02-06T21:08:00.000+08:00

Wanted to blog yesterday but some last min thingy crop up nothing too major so lazy go into details..anyway just finish watching another korean show last weekend. A show called 'My girl', basic summary as follows: Slightly similar to Full House but lamer and funny too. Light hearted love comedy with a good touching ending. Thumbs up! =D
Anyway this week will be busy and slack as well..Contradicting? Well my RQ not here so will be slack meanwhile going into slightly into work mode so will be slightly busy as well. Haha yup thats what i meant. ANyway supposed to be on duty this sun also...but one of my platoon mate tong ku will be built on my xing fu. Haha...no la he kena extra so nothing much i can do about it.So that means i can rest on this sun liao hee~K la that will be it this time..below attached is My girl pics..

2006-02-03T01:08:00.000+08:00

Sigh i am feeling very uneasy now...argh~ i have been waiting for this period since last year and now i just feeling very uneasy just thinking about it..what am i thinking? Uni of course...I know soon i have to apply liao but i haven got the courage think about the worse scenario..was thinking what if...the worse happened? haix...what to do??

2006-02-01T00:43:00.000+08:00

Haha went out to quite few places for today.. In the morning went to william house to see celestial zone books then shun bian bai nian, after that went out to coffee bean at west mall for a cup of ice mocha before meeting yy to pass him full house vcd..yy was with ben and pye haha tot he was alone so was abit suprised to see them as well. Initially supposed to meet kelv also(all at westmall) haha but think he too busy in the end so didn't meet him. Met up with bee har ss mj and jeff at 2.30 to go holland V, i was conned! haha i even told william i not eatting lunch cuz i eating lunch later then bee har told me they going there to drink beverages only..i was abit stunned. We went to a place called essential brew, its quite a nice place- consists of 2 lvls where 1st lvl look like a normal restaurant and 2nd floor is more cosy where u can seat on the floor. Then their food some got infused tea inside so its quite an interesting place. had a hawalian freeze that is supposed to be apple+pineapple+red tea..somehow it tasted like slighly yakult taste haha but quite nice. Had fish and chips also which somehow after i ordered food, all the guys also wanna eat something liao haha if not i guess i 1 person eat abit weird also...went there sat till 6 plus and chit chat quite alot of things...from driving to korean dramas and from psp to jobs..After that went back cuz abit late..went westmall awhile with jeff...went popular saw weilian album but i want buy kelly album..haha hope its nicer then went ts see potential i wanna see korean shows but i seriously have no clue which is nice...haha went home after that and reach home at 8 i guess. Lucky i on off dun need go back camp but i didn't 4get tml need go khatib camp. Lucky got bus from my home hehe..k think stopping for now. These few days got some ppl bday: Yong Liang, Wei kuan and Eunice happy bday on jan 30 and qiu qui on feb 01..the early 20 birds haha but its still a long way for me...but i was quite suprised, to know 3 person with e same dates. That must be 1 lucky day to be born? Hmm....

cny

2006-01-31T01:56:00.000+08:00

Happy chinese new year! Its only a few days before i blog but almost feel like so much happened haha =D Think i will start what happened for new year instead. Went malaysia on sun and mon, going there was fast since my cousin gave us a ride back. Mostly is we went back by bus which always leaves me in sweat due to the crowd that is always there when we go back msia. Yup which means we got to my uncle house early this year. And the first thing i did there.... *drumroll* .... SLEEP! haha although i didn't play mahjong(dunno how to play too) or anyone came along, i just dun feel like sleeping =p so the nite before i end up 4 sleep and only had around 3 and a half hour of nap..hehe bad habit of mine i know.
But this year compare to last year and the last last year didn't had too much people in the house, i wonder why.. Didn't have too much relatives for my mum side (compare to my dad) so everytime we only visit a couple more relatives living there, since most of the rest will come to my uncle's house also to visit. All right lah, every year since i go there i have nothing much to do so will just sleep and think about stuff, somehow i feel that my heart has been broken for too long...Hurts yes but not for the fact i desperate but i realise i had stopped liking someone even thou i thought i was..thats not exactly a nice feeling kind of like truth u didn't wish u will hear...but never mind its only a small part of me. Just that my tao hua yun not here yet nei.. =D
Ohoh...This year saw fireworks haha normally i hear people playing fireworks there but i lazy to go out see nia...this year manage to go see...nice man~ haha went there saw 2 vcds also..cny lameness yeah..then there was also a lame car i saw when i was returning..takumi AE86 from initial D..kaoz seeing something that came out of an animation and its exactly the same on the exterior loh wonder that fanatic got really did some modifications to his car anot...thats really extreme loh =X haha and my cousin is really WOW ok maybe old bird..we went by the first link back to sg and it was jamming very badly..but he manage here cut there cut and that really shortened the time alot..but still it took us 2 hrs to go home so i reach home around 11.
Gonna go rest liao..tml busy day for me too...going out early at 10 plus tml...time to sleep... zzzzzzzz....

sian..

2006-01-25T21:35:00.000+08:00

Sigh, was planning blog when break starts but now i just wanna express my unhappiness. This coming wed afternoon have to go for some batallion event at khatib camp. There goes my long break. And my early start of my break didn't happen as i plan. Sobz initially tml plan take time-off and the rsm has to specify tml evening got run.Well off to storerun tml for me then! Haha...better to go sightseeing in a vehicle than to stay in camp =(
Today was so tired, dunno why so tired also especially i sleep quite soundly yday. Lucky noon can sleep longer cuz need draw arms. So more ample free time haha shiok man! After that was abit frustrating, cuz need to raise jobs and the system keep giving me problems. Stupid old computers that are laggy and stupid system too! blah~
Anyway, stopping now going back camp soon. When will i get to rest?!?!

I want my break~

waiting for..

2006-01-24T20:59:00.000+08:00

Been few days since i last blog. Reason being i was watching 1 shot a korean drama 'Full House' that i borrowed from Kelv. 16 eps in all so equal out to approx 16 hrs + Haha its really a nice show, immediate addiciction after watching the first disc. Only thing is that the male and female leads are so indecisive about their feelings. Its not easy thou. I roughly can understand that. Rather that saying that, maybe i can see a little bit of myself in each of the chars. Human thoughts are so strange. But still, it has a good ending so at least feel quite ok after watching it =)

CNY coming liao.. Haha think i will be taking whole week off! (still pending confirmation but can take for sure. Only thing is how many days burn our own how many days awarded.) Most likely 0.5 to 1 day awarded and 3+ days burn.) Its okay..haha i still got quite some days off i earn last year. Hehe...Stopping now liao...next time i blog shall be the day i start my long break!

FMA

2006-01-20T14:18:00.000+08:00

Spent my morning watching Full Metal Alchemist the movie and find it overall quite good and give the whole anime a good ending and was itching to write something about it. Let me give a short summary about this anime first. Edward and Alphonse Edric were brothers who live in the world of alchemy whereby they believe in the principle of equivalent trade. Unfortunately they lost their mother at a young age and they did a horrible thing- resurrect their mother, which was a big taboo as you cannot bring back the dead again. As a result, they failed and Edward lost a arm and a leg while Al lost his whole body and had to fix his soul onto a metal armor...
Basically the movie begins with after the anime series end. So for people who didn't watch the anime, this movie is a no-no.
These are some hilarious screenshots i took:

Haha the one in red is the older brother Edward and the metal armour is Al. But the fact that Al looks bigger people always mistook him for the older brother and Edward is super prone and furious when he hear the word 'small' or equivalent..Well you can see also how convenient Al is at times =D
Anyway, the movie provided a better ending compared to the anime and its really a nice show. A good 2 hours of my time hehe..

sick

2006-01-19T23:48:00.000+08:00

These few days were terrible for me.
Yday night had a terrible blocked nose, a terrible running nose and a terrible sore throat and almost had a should-be-terrible fever. Lucky 2 panados and a flu tablet manage to let me sleep if not i will feel worse today. Supposed to take a time off early today to see chi doc but in the end manage to go out camp at early 4+ ... So was feeling slightly sore maybe due to sickness. Anyway let me explain the structure of my camp first. Its in such a way that i have to walk in/out 10 mins before i can take a bus home, either that or i wait for a bus at my camp to go out. So i waited..1 kind hearted soul that i didnt know gave me and another guy out to the first gate. Haha so lucky! This is the first time also, so was feeling that my day is turning better..my bus came early also so i wasn't fussing til..I was listening to mp3 halfway when i saw the driver's seat smoke came out. WTH how can a bus be so dangerous?!?!?! But i guess i used to traumatising experiences that i didnt really was in any state of shock ... Waited for another bus to come along to bring me back to woodland when i took bus back home.

Went to see doc at night and i rode a bicycle to the clinic. Wasn't really far but not exactly near either. =D but the suay thing is it started pouring and i had to wait for an hour before it died down, sobz what a day packed with so much troubles. And my throat is still feeling bad now >_<

Anyway that means my plan for this weekend is gonna changed slightly. Run will be cancelled. Sunshine plaza with sis to eat wanton mee will be postponed (too heaty for me now) and maybe room cleaning and tidying will be quite general, since dust irritates my throat very badly now.

Oh ya, previous day was a shocking day also. I was handcuffed and brought to DB! Zzz...I was escorting a detainee but the feeling of handcuffed( 1 hand) wasn't very good, if 2 hands i bloody hell carn imagine how troublesome it will be..

Gonna sleep soon, sick ppl must not sleep too late... Tml plan will be: watch full house, rest, maybe go sunshine look around if feeling better...

I want to be healthy again.

nya

2006-01-16T21:18:00.000+08:00

The start of a week.
And a good one i hope =) Rq will not be around for the most of this week, not that i complaining thou hehe. Think he on course...anyway new year is coming soon liao. So this coming wkend shall be room cleaning and tidying again. Anyway my weekend plan is as followed:
Friday night: uni planning?
Sat morn: Running
Sat noon: Going sunshine plaza
Sat evening/sun : Room tidying

Wonder how much of the plans will i follow thru? haha...Yday went to kelv house to pick up full house and fma movie from him. Haha and i started playing sudoku, a jap puzzle game. Haha lets just say that its more challenging than minesweeper and recently i guess its quite popular..wonder why...hmmm but nevertheless fun la =p
Anyway going to camp soon...shall update next time..

How time passes~

150106

2006-01-15T00:08:00.000+08:00

Contented Me.
Thats sort of what i am feeling now. At least I really feel quite relax, haven got this enjoyable feeling for some time le. Maybe its because LRI finish and in camp quite slack for this very short period of time. Yupyup...
Was on off for fri, went out to lavender to renew passport, liew wkday is so much different, less than 5 min ok liao, so in the end decided to go bugis walk walk. OK, i abit sua gu but i not exactly very familiar with junction8 so kind of here walk there explore. Cuz new year coming, went buy some clothes. Realise i not very good with shopping...Sometime shop size very small then no one else in the shop i dare not go in nia.. *blush* i am shy despite how i look, rather more of weak ba haha...in the end went seiyu bought a shop, went giordano bought a belt, then kind of walk around more than 1 round. After that went causeway point again, haha bought somemore at john little. I need to work on my shopping man..haha abit too weak liao...

Oh recently slightly obsessed with cosplay. Cosplay is actually costume playing. But normally i have quite high standards so not couldn't find good ones that caught my eyes, to me cosplay animes u need to look good in them so americans or similar dun meet the expectations. I manage to find some nice cosplay recently hehe..

This is the first one i found. Cosplaying on an manga called deathnote.. She is so cute!!! haha and i manage to find her profile which shocked me. She is a thai and she is 21 this year!! OMG she look like she is only 15-16 only nia..I just dun believe loh..but its real guess looks are deceiving at times >_<

These are a couple more pics on her..haha but she just look cute...=D

Anyway, recently started watching initial D fourth stage. The lameness of tofu power and the pathetic relationships in the anime...just hope everything else can cover for that =)

Contended with my life currently...no complications plz.. =)

101105

2006-01-10T18:27:00.000+08:00

What a good break today!
The proof? I woke up mistaking today for a weekend again! Haha thats normally a good sign..Didnt do much today thou. Spent my time watching Initial D and i watch till and finish third stage liao =D
So after watching 39 eps of anime and an almost 2 hr movie. I will give my views about this anime. As you all know, the main lead is Fujiwara Takumi. His father owns a tofu shop and is somehow a crazy but good driver in the past. Their family car AE86 somehow is not very 'family-usage' oriented and is good enough for racing. What I find interesting is that the author has quite a nice concept. Racing in the mountains..seems very interesting to me rather than the norm type of racing. So basically takumi drives up the mountain to deliver tofu everyday, rain or shine. When i watch it, a thought came to my mind. So basically his good skills is thanks to the manager of the hotel on top of the mountains =D haha if he never employ them, he will never have the chance to practice =p Just kidding... What keep me addicted is just the matches la..quite interesting to watch thou i dun understand a thing. LOL
Of course, there are some parts i dun like..
1st part: Love relationships in the anime just doesnt work out. Thats abit crap loh , takumi and his 2 buddies have their relationships in the anime before. But ALL of them are similar. Both parties have likings to one another, but somehow they will not get together. Wonder is it what the author experience but still its crappy.
2nd part: Selling tofu can allow u to maintain ur daily life and still you can upgrade ur car parts and maintain your car. That is something i will never understand =pPpP...

Tofu Power? o_O!?!?

080106

2006-01-08T19:40:00.000+08:00

Boring...
Just like yday, it has been raining for the whole of today. I wonder whats wrong with the clouds, it feel like it is neverending. How can it rain so long?!?! Crap.. Couldn't take the boredom went out to causeway point for awhile. Haha actually also nothing for me to do there. But beats than staying at home i guess? =D Abit crappy later on, tonight going back camp then mon night come back rest and tues night go back again. But i not going to take any off for this long wkend. Cuz i aiming for CNY de haha...really wonder tt period what i going to do..hehe guess i just phased out playing game for now. Cuz i find it boring boring... What is going to happen to me this year? So many thoughts, so many plans....

Rainy Days

2006-01-07T23:49:00.000+08:00

Raining Season..
The times you feel like just staying at home not doing anything. Thats what I am feeling now. Didnt go for any run today, it just keep drizzling when i wanna go run. Dot dot dotz... Well not just the run, was planning go walk walk again today, but well same reason =D the scenery outside my window is suggesting i stay at home. In the end decided to get a new blogskin and spent some time editing it. Quite pleased i must say hehe. Added a nice bg music also and finally included a link for going to frenz links. Lets just say i am a lazy guy who sometimes find doing certain things troublesome hehe =p Anyway the skin i using is from a anime called 'Bleach' (for those ppl who never watch animes..)
Hmmm watched finished initial D first stage since i didn't go out in the end. Surprisingly nice for an car idiot like me haha. Mainly show is about racing with slight romance between characters. Well there is only one part that kept me thinking thou. There is this one guy who likes a girl and even treated her as an angel. (Well, this is an anime after all...) The girl also likes him but the guy feels like the girl is out of reach to him and feels inferior. Even thou when the guy is supposed to meet the girl, he didn't turn up and later on while some sense is knocked into him, he rushed to the meeting place to find himself an empty street. Well, not all stories have good endings even in animes. It keeps me thinking is it sometimes when you meet someone is it fate that allows you to meet? But what exactly happens after that depends on yourself. It is up to you to grab the chance. Once it slipped out of your hand, it is just like sand. Never to be retrieve back again. Its not as easy as it seems. I let sand slipped away from my hand before. Maybe just like in story/anime, the female lead is just too far away beyond my reach. Is it due to my inferiority complex that make me feel I should let go? Maybe...

My broken wings, still strong enough to cross the ocean with...
My broken wings, How far should I go drifting in the wind?

...

2006-01-06T23:36:00.000+08:00

Waiting for one of my dl to finish..so blogging for now...
Woke up at 6.45 this morn, that was abit TOO automatic, so decided to sleep back again till 9+...went back camp in the noon but my side all post-LRI mode which is slacking..dot dot dot i also slack with them haha...
RQ was so happy with my side just now..basically cuz we improve from an B to A and manage to save GE and pull back the grades..think he told OC also..he abit naggy sia..i was waiting for him to finish talking and start sweating alot haha paiseh i sweat alot de...
Was planning go Northpoint walk but in the end gave up the idea cuz my bag too big. Haha reason being I yday wore no.4 there instead of civilian so bringing home extra bag and clothes. Oh and shoes too. Haha...
At home also started to be lazy..haha too late to go out walk walk so think tml then i go walk myself...But i wun forget tml is a wkend liao..promised myself to exercise during wkend so i will keep to it. K for now i shall continue wait for my anime to finish dl..gonna have a gooooood sleep today to make myself feel good. Haha sweet dreams to me hopefully!

SHAG SHAg SHag Shag shag.....

A A A A

2006-01-05T19:57:00.000+08:00

Something idiotic happened today... I lock my keys in my cupboard and my spare keys which are with Bob he left it at home. Crap...And i reminded him a couple of days back regarding my spare keys...haix kind of feel misplaced my trust with him...So in the end went tackle my LRI round 2 without specs...what a bad feeling! Basically thats why i was pissed off just now... try doing 1 day work without the specs...i feel very terrible....PLus my hp and wallet is also inside my cupboard...this is what happen when my cupboard gets too secure...but what to do..my bunk security sux...why am i here in this camp??? sigh..
In the end went home in my no.4 and really special thkz to huiyong. Haha thkz bro for ur ez link card..this is really help when i needed it.. Now typing this blog in my old specs..haha kind of feel weird wearing it...it looks so...fragile... =D
Anyway thats it for now...cheers to my hard work its time to relax slightly...

Praying hard my key is here later on~ If not i will be 'homeless' T_T

dot dot dot

2006-01-04T21:09:00.000+08:00

Just shower finish, was looking at beehar wrote in her diaryland. Found one link she put. Kind of touching. So will share it also.Anyway you can dl it here http://www.vmaxxum.com/download.html Its the first mtv so dl it.
hehe sorry for the copyright thou...if u have any =p.... Still it is a nice mv...quite touching...

LRI!

2006-01-04T20:10:00.000+08:00

Hey hey i manage to find something to post so decided to post early! haha actually also nothing much, just Dad is taking a shower and i dunno wad to do with the time before i go shower also so blog loh...haha thats how i am~
Anyway, i was on duty yday. That was one of the most sian duty i did. Reason being? People working super duper wuper loong OT and ihad to stay back with them. Til wad time? 2AM!!! Kaoz and i have to wake up at 6 some more nia. >_< What a start before LRI....
LRI was ok for today, provided we did our things properly. But just now kan jeong about 1 item. Idiot murali. Feel like banging his head with a hammer. Lucky end of day, we found the item to be where it supposed to be. Thou it took alot of hassles plus stress-ing me out alot. Almost get very pissed cuz i did quite some hard work last week with regards to today LRI. At least the problem is solved but i still feel like strangling murali. Haha =D
Tml will be round 2! Oh shit, what am I going to do~ The person in charge told me the tradesman competency i need to do. Which initially Victor say i dun need. Oh crap, oh crab, oh lobster!!!!What am i supposed to do!?!?! Anyway they say they will be lenient and i have to learn tml here and there then.. Gonna be stressful tml morning and afternoon again and hope that by the end of day, I will feel sastisfactory like today... Well heard dad coming out of shower liao, so going to stop here...looks like I have to pray hard for myself >_>

What Do I Do?

020106

2006-01-02T20:30:00.000+08:00

Early this morning...ok correction...very early this morning at 5+ woke up to go back camp. Haha LRI is on the 4th so we went back to touch up abit..basically i only did area cleaning in my store. Ok la..went there for half day also can get 1 day off. Worth it worth it =D Plus we also did up relevant stuff for our store. So convenient hehe..went back home at around 1..took a shower and concussed till 4+ ..hehe but chum..need find time to exercise liao..i will run this coming wkend..this I promise myself. Afterall its my resolution this year.=) Later going back camp again..I must pushed on these few days!

Oh ya, recently finding myself watching 2 animes: Initial D and Trinity Blood. Each has its own addiction, haha guess if nothing much will only blog this fri or weekend.
Forecast of this week:

1.STRESS
2.SIAN

Dun like any of it but guess thats how it goes...Till then, adious~

why??

2006-01-01T22:34:00.000+08:00

Just now around evening went out with sis to causeway point..haha she said she never tried pastamania before so i promised her yday to bring her there. Ordered creamy chicken pasta and I ordered tiramisu for us to try.

Haha anyway...that is what is left of it hehe =p taste sweet and bitter..weird dessert but nonetheless quite not bad..haha =D But sadded thing is that tml morning going back camp liao..I want my long weekend! Nevermind, I shall put my effort into this LRI and hope I will sow and reap good offs for CNY! haha...shall stop now..gonnna rest soon...tml have to wake up at 5+..

010106

2006-01-01T01:20:00.000+08:00

The first post of the year! 2006! haha so here I am..making my resolutions for the year again!
1. To lose weight!
2. To get into Uni!
3.Let everyone stay happy and healthy for the whole year!

3 wishes hope its not too much? =p Just trying to make myself happy with my current life now..One will never know what good things or bad things will happen to oneself so the best way is to live life happily whenever possible...Anyway, life will get better! Where is my special one? Haha happy new year all!!!

P.S oh ya recently gaga over kelly again for no reason..when her album coming out?!?! (feel like buying) =p

last post?

2005-12-31T21:56:00.000+08:00

I have decided...something so serious that i must think alot beforehand first..something so grave that I must put in alot of thoughts to it...This...will.... Be my last post of the year!!!!!!! Haha...opps for the unnecessary lameness =PpPpP...

Today ard noon ss msg me to go out to town to walk walk...I got nothing to do so I decided to go along with them, but told them I will be slightly later cuz I just woke up and haven tidy myself yet. Reach orchard at 2 and I prove myself that I am not a frequent walker in town. I met them up at 3 only! haha the whole story is very simple.And this is how it goes: Once upon a time, there is 1 idiot who was suppose to met up with his friends at town. They told this idiot to meet at Far East and he went Far East to find them. HOWEVER, the only problem is that they were waiting at Far East Plaza and he was at Far East Shopping Centre...Crappy...How can this idiot make this mistake..Baka Baka Baka Baka!!!! Anyway didnt do much also, went to Far East Plaza to eat, started raining and went to Wisma. After that went library at Taka for awhile and ss & Jeff borrowed some comics. Took a trip to Kinokuniya and realised one piece came up already( i was collecting it) Maybe some other time will find myself either there or Times to buy myself a book maybe.( decent english book ) After that went HMV to look look before going home again...abit bo liao..but beats better than staying at home.
Anyway, nothing much to blog about liao. Time to stop blogging...

P.S For bakas that didnt realise, the 'idiot' was me. >_<

LRI pre preparation,,

2005-12-31T00:32:00.000+08:00

Woot! Got my new blogskin up liao..decide to use jimmy related pic again (quite nice ma), with some help from sis also..i kinda lazy to learn to edit blogskin template...added in a tagboard as well...

Yday didnt manage to go home..was busy preparing and settling stuff..sorry Victor if I abit like a IC instead..haha truth is i treating everyone in my store as equal and i only doing what i feel i can do for the store..after all I want the offs! tehehehehe~ This 2nd jan (monday) will have to go back camp again..sobz sobz...RQ not easy with the LRI deadline pressing on us..want us to come back work OT..there goes 1 holiday...then again no pain no gains....My aim for LRI either a high B or a low A..best a low A...heard can get 10 offs! WAH pray hard hard man~

Somehow maybe cuz of the busy and hectic LRI i manage to get some thoughts out of my mind...Went home just now realise Geraldine(swiss classmate) sent me a christmas card..wonder how she got my address..most likely is massive sending but i dun really remember writing my address during sec periods anyway...hmmm that is going to be 1 mystery for now..haha old liao carn remember much things... >_<

Anyway shall stop now...super duper wuper vuper tired...brain no more juice liao...brain cells are degenerating faster than their regeneration rate =p ....

STRESSFUL LRI

nevertheless thinking of the past...

its already enough =)

2005-12-28T20:33:00.000+08:00

Hiya headache headache...LRI just pushed to the 4th of Jan, means going full swing these few days..i will work hard for my offs..whoosh!
Today its a free nights off again..as RQ not here =p went home to watch anime ..its better than staying at camp lol. Sometimes about watching anime/drama, u will remind urself of things and sometime good thoughts come out of it. Just remember how memories are important to me, regardless of good/bad times. Times i feel very happy, times i feel sad, times i feel bored, times i feel just the way I am....even thou it might be the end of something..regardless of school life, end of a year or even something wonderful, I guess the fact that all good things come to an end still exist...thats y no matter what I will cherish my past and appreciated what has happened to me. Guess thats life.. I missed my school life, miss my free times with friends, missed playing bball, missed caring for crushes...haha 1 more year to go and i hope I will find more things to do, more things to get happy over and most of all, more memories to be kept in me. Haha sometimes i wonder, how truthful can i be with myself, even when writing blog or even having dreams, I just dare not be truthful to myself. So 1 truthful thing, good bye to you. Even thou things didnt work out what I had hoped, but its good enough for me already, I already had wonderful memories of things I never dreamt before. To care for one is to let go. I have let go..Its the last thing I can do for you only. Stay happy..

Peace at heart~

271205

2005-12-27T19:30:00.000+08:00

Hiya so fast the end of 1 festive season and the coming of another...the mark of the end of this year! This year really passes fast. Saw the posts i made throughout the year and realise all these things happen really in a blink of an eye. What will happen nest year? haha hu knows but shall look forward to the end of this year and the beginning of 2006. Might be sleeping through it thou..T_T Went back camp yday and something happened in the morn..1 of my bunk lost his hp...that makes the 2nd case with the first case being me. I had enough of my bunk liao..nexy year jan when ah Ti starts to clear his stuff then will move into his bunk le..Sorry if i abit racist but the people i get into contact during ns just dun give me a good impression. Only some of them i will treat them with respect. I am not unreasonable after all..

Gonna stop here for now..nothing much for me to talk about liao.. Forecast of incoming few days shall stay at home and slack through it. Haha...might start looking to find a new nice blogskin (like the current one but maybe shall scout for a better one.) Sayonara~

Time waits for no man

Face up the truth

2005-12-26T19:57:00.000+08:00

Woke up at 12 tis morning/noon...had a good sleep for today haha...planning to go nokia shop to service and upgrade software version for my hp..but on the bus realise i need bring receipt along..crap went to sunshine plaza to see what they have new on the shelf...didnt get myself anything..only went there abit tempted by the food...bought wan ton mee eat..yum~

It has been a troublesome month for me this december..the very reason you can see is that i starting blogging too often these few days to pin down my thoughts as well as to get my feelings out somewhere. Guess I tried to shake off my past and try to get my hopes slightly higher recently is nothing much but a dream- something far from reality. Anyway, going back to camp soon le.. time to pack my stuff..

~[ 3 words i wished I can say...Even now... ]~

Tales

2005-12-25T23:02:00.000+08:00

Tales of a wanderer

I am a wandering wanderer. You can call me NCY. About 3 hours ago, my 'wandering' itchiness came and I had to leave my house again. If I stay any longer, I will be infected by 1 terrible disease called . Terrible isn't it? I wander to sun plaza at sembawang, was tempted by ice mocha again. Bought it in the end and started doing what I was planning to do: wander around. However, there is simply nothing much for me at sun plaza. Went to causeway point later on, went bought identical white earphones, this time round it was black at the sides. Gave the yellow sides to my sis..abit not suitable for me. Walk around abit before deciding to buy something that I seldom will buy: clothes... haha went walk around before stopping at bossini to buy 1 bermuda pants and collar T. Realised that the urge to lose some more weight is there. Gonna go run tomorrow again. Anyway around 10.30 was satisfied with what I bought and went home..Thats it. End of Story.

Written By:
someone lame...

P.S. paiseh feeling abit lame and decide to blog lamely..
hehe... =pPpPpPpP

hohoho

2005-12-25T00:41:00.000+08:00

MerrI Chrisstmasss ALL!!!! Haha I missed my pre-christmas post just now...was concussed for 4 hrs =PpPp...

ANyway earlier on, I finished 1 amazing accomplishment with my sis! haha so happy..I cook dinner for my family the first time! Went G'value (downstairs) to buy food, decided on campbell soup, potato salad, beans and spaghetti! hehe.. ohoh and of course to try out scrambled eggs..always wanna cook those western style scrambled eggs but had no idea..previously (last try long time ago) always pure yellow egg but not thick and always dry..finally realised I had to cook with slow fire..fannnn-tastic~yeah..

Next was potato salad, i leave tt to my sis..haha something simple and just taste great! Althou initially she overcooked the potatoes but after some cooling down it hardened again yupyup..

Spaghetti...T_T that was a disaster..manage to cook it w/o problems but whats troublesome was the sauce..was initially wanted to some tomato sauce but i dunno how! Decide to make creamy spaghetti instead and..and..I added too much water to my soup base *cry* it became diluted instead..even had to sought mum's help she added some starch inside but still wasnt good enought to put on top of spaghetti..in the end i just added tomato ketchup and stir fry for awhile..taste still acceptable just abit disappointed compare to what I wish to came up with..

Mum and dad are vegetarians so I used to eatting what they eat at home..so i didn't have the chance to buy and cook meat (how to cook meat?? haha) ..neither the chance to eat a real christmas dinner either..Still its the thoughts that count in the end at least I guess =D

Finally some after thoughts..poor me never receive any christmas pressies again..used to it i guess. Till now the presents i received for almost 19 years can be counted with my 2 hands..abit pathetic hor haha..used to it lor..

P.S I didnt cook any beans in the end =p

24th

2005-12-24T13:32:00.000+08:00

its christmas eve! haha slept w/o anyone disturbing me for 2 hours then slept back again for another 3 hrs...but feeling energetic now yeah man...What should i do later on? Should i go out at night to look at town's lights? blah..home has no habit of celebrating christmas..going out will only make me feel lonely..haha think most likely i will stay at home..

Music pleasseeee:
AKON ''Lonely I'm Mr Lonely,I have nobody,For my owwnnn.....''
STOPPP not that songggg change itttt...
Britney:''santa can u hear me? i have been so good this year,tell me my true love is near..''

so early in the morn or too late at night?

2005-12-24T03:58:00.000+08:00

Haha its 4 am in the morn now.Me now at jeff house, actually also did nothing much haha.. Was watching fantastic 4 earlier on..not bad not bad...then 2nd movie i just dun feel like watching, ''april snow'' Dun like the story dun like the show...gave up watching at less than 15 mins..haha sooo sad and to think tt time when movie was up i wanna see it. Shall not talk much for now..guess its time to nap..haha adious~

231205

2005-12-23T18:19:00.000+08:00

So fast time passes, after 1 more christmas and 1 more new year's eve, its the beginning of the next year liao. Its always this period of the time that some people(like me) who start thinking what they have done and what they want to do next year. I want to apply for my uni admission. I want to lose weight. I want to find someone special to me. And lastly I want everyone to stay healthy always. 4 wishes for the entire year..I hope I am not too greedy thou..Hehe..My first 2 wishes is something I really wanted to do and settle it next year for good. 4th wish is something beyond my control but I wished that it will happen too. 3rd wish is just something inside of me wanted..something that I am not too hopeful thou.. So what have I done for the past year? I really wonder..Dun really remember doing anything too fantastic thou but at least I feel happy or lame..whatever haha

Just watch finish my xiao yu er and hua wu que..If i was to give a rating, first half of the show I will probably give a 9/10 but 2nd half only ended up with 4/10. Why? The show was light-hearted and funny for the 1st half, which was good as my mood wasnt exactly the best intially. 2nd half was terrible..everyone started dying and it was CRAP. Tears came out at the last ep thou..not because I was touched but because I was sad when they started showing too many people who died..haix..why carn endings be good? stupid scriptwriter...feel like banging you on your head haha...

Anyway my plan for night cycling was cancelled. In the end find it pointless to go..only MJ going..ss not going..then zhipeng not going...finally heard from ss after tt vanessa also not going..haha wadever..i just dun mix well with strangers..initially tot at least 4 ppl i know de den dun mind..so last min changes as follows: going to jeff house...haha guess its bettter than alone at home..then I start thinking wild thoughts again.

Anyway this year, I guess I still got something worrying me. Sometime wonder what I did was right or wrong..To like somebody again..Even when I was hurt once..Am i too foolish? Or am I too chi1 qing1? Now everything is just too awkward again..sigh bad sign bad sign..I rather time turn back once again..

Live your life well.

snip snap

2005-12-23T00:54:00.000+08:00

snip snip snip...haha went to causeway point to cut hair in the afternoon...called wad express cut i think. First time went there so abit blur juz now..had to insert a 10 dollar note to change a card and 'queue' up..diao like that also can..but ok la at least hair shorter now LoL..haha too bad i am not photogenic so no matter what...i just dun look nice on pics....went home after that to continue chiong my drama..4 more disc to go!! hehe..fast?

SS msn me just now say he tml last min got camp stuff cannot go nite cycling. Hmm...so only left mj and vanessa..now kind of hesitating should i go..nv try b4 nia, abit tempting haha but dunno wad should i bring. Gavin msg me just now say sat outing cancel liao..sadded 1 more day dunno wad to do liao..but anyway i plan go there twang also...so ya abit no diff haha..

love you still..

2005-12-21T21:15:00.000+08:00

News flash again: Instead of a long weekend from friday to monday night...now i have thurs noon to monday night! haha half a day makes alot of difference k? Anyway I plan to go to vanessa's night cycling thingy on fri night liao. Guess riding for 5 hours is something I never do before and it should be quite memorable..Somemore after I mistook 23rd to be christmas eve..kaoz how could I get such a date wrong..I wonder...

Sat night( ya I know THAT is christmas eve liao) pj peepz organising christmas party..gavin house but most of them going last time i seldom click together de....after the cycling night time his house again..can i survive the shagness? haha dun care liao..

What are you thinking?

201205

2005-12-20T20:49:00.000+08:00

Haha i just realised something today...For almost 1 month, I got the date of Christmas wrong! haha how blur can 1 get =p I thought Christmas WAS on 24th and was still wondering why camp so bad...Christmas eve ask us clear own off. Only realised the mistake when someone told me 26th no need come back camp..hehe at least now i know i have 4 days break..soo happy =D

Hmm went to cwp earlier to buy comics and top up farecard and had a sudden temptation for ice mocha when i rmb something else..Sigh dun really know what I am thinking now.. Thoughts are sometime so..

~Mei yong qi de ren you yu de shun jian, xing fu jiu piao guo mian qian~

191205

2005-12-19T21:09:00.000+08:00

Got a free nights off again hehe but guess its the last one liao..these few days slack is due to stocktake aftermath..soon another busy period is surfacing..manage to watch my vcd again..so sad now the show...guess in shows happiness and sadness follows a pattern..happy then sad then happy..Hmm just realise ch 8 show 9pm end liao and another nice show follows suit ( it looks like a nice love comedy ) but guess i dun have time for any 7 and 9pm tv slot...

Anyway tday at work was abit fed up la..guess i need to work on myself abit but carn help it la..I know busy times are ahead but if the rest of the platoon left at 3 and I had to stay back till 4 i find it unfair la...I will work back tml w/o complains (hopefully)

Anyway again (=D) , i heard this fri we gonna take our off..that means long weekend again! woot~

~Believe in miracles~

better..

2005-12-18T21:35:00.000+08:00

Hiya going back camp soon liao...spent my sun watching show as well hehe...i am so addicted to dramas...watch finish box 1 liao..15 discs more to go =D

P.S. i attached the box i bought below
P.S. again: I am back to my lame self =)

181205

2005-12-18T00:05:00.000+08:00

haha guess I am all good again...buying the vcd drama was a good choice..sometimes no point worrying about other things..just let time to heal together with some other aids like frens or something else to do and that will be enough..guess no white christmas for me this year thou.. End of a year is approaching and a new year is creeping on me..woot~ life goes on haha

P.S zhang wei jian's show rox!!! he never fails to cheer me~ turning to a ZWJ addict >_<
Sick of sushi for now thou had too much liao >_<

2005-12-17T17:25:00.000+08:00

Its only sat. Time for me was really slow today. Initially plan to go sunshine plaza to buy some stuff but in the end dun realise the need anymore. Went to northpoint to buy vcd to watch..if not dun really know wad to do for incoming weeks. No mood to play any games for now(boring~) and no more anime series to dl for now(plain lazy to find new series) Bought a chi show called 'xiao yu er and huq wu que' by zhang wei jian. Always like his acting..hope it will bring me some laughter *yup yup*

Anyway manage clear up some airs yday..but still decide to not do anything Its not fair for anyone and myself. I guess it still will take me some time before the rhythm in me starts to go back to normal.

`Humans are strange ones, aren't we?`

161205

2005-12-16T22:36:00.000+08:00

Hmmm 2nd post of the day..guess i am getting all build up inside me and i need somewhere to contain my feelings..anyway just came back from run 1 hr ago, too long nv run only manage to run 2 rounds..gambatte need to train again..

noon think i realised something , so i decided to stop dreaming in my world and start to see the reality again. Guess the emo scars left behind in my past is still hurting, i almost wanted to start dreaming again but i wake up in time to stop the pain from getting worse. Guess its just me thats why things happen, I am boring most of my times, too lame for anyone and guess sometime i only wanted to give and not receive..thats why i decide not to drag on for something without any meaning..if it continus it will only hurt me. Had enough of giving and not receiving, so if one carn decide, guess its me to decide on my own. I tried to be there once but one-way isnt the way after all...

Hoping someone will understand me...

161205

2005-12-16T10:40:00.000+08:00

Haha on off today, later will be running off for my physio in the noon. I realised that i long time never do exercises le, as a result, when i started on wed both of my hands and stomach is aching now >_< need to start exercising haha after all a new year is coming =D Been starting to watch on my diet recently also. Haha bo bian new year new start might as well start now. Alot of things for me to do in the upcoming year so i must be mentally prepared also, I can do it~ yeah man~ haha..

haha oh ya..i manage to get a camp fren to help me print out some pics from my comp in A3 size and laminated..haha quite pleased with what came out..just surprised how the pics quality look, must be a really good printer they using haha...

091205

2005-12-09T23:21:00.000+08:00

As always, long time since i last blog. Been busy in camp and always tired at home. Camp was especially busy...with stocktaking coming to an end and LRI preparation, was trying to tidy up my store to make it as neat and presentable regardless of paperwork and the outlook of the store.
Been thinking quite alot recently...so fast 1 yr enlistment and 1 more yr before i step into the world again. What have i been doing before that and what did i do for the past year and what will happen after that? Sigh its just a world of question marks to me... In the end, i am just a guy who tries to step away from reality. One who keep hopes high but afraid of losing hope. One who chooses to share happiness but to keep all the bitterness within himself. One who loses confidence in the past and uncertain of how to get back confidence in the present. Still, i believe that tomorrow will be a better day and will work towards that.
Christmas and New Year is coming soon. 1st lucky thing...no duties during that period...woohooo!! season of giving but who to give? maybe swiss ppl got organise a gathering? i wonder... holidays somehow is just an excuse to get-together, where we meet up to see how we are doing.
Anyway enough of the ranting liao...just feeling old maybe...thats why start to talk like an old man liao haha...

haha anyway saw something in camp recently...a rainbow! something that we dun normally see due to being busy and we forget to take a look at our surroundings..so no matter what we do..dun give up..the world is still a beautiful place =)

201105

2005-11-20T20:58:00.000+08:00

Went out with jh ss jeff to watch goblet of fire this afternoon (MJ ps if not i might watch yday) overall show was nice found myself laughing at some of the scenes but still i expected much...guess my expectations of the show was too high. =p Its going to be a busy week once i book in tonight again. Sometimes storework is making me headache >_< what to do...i am a soldier...haix.. Dunno why nowadays animes found myself addicted to 2 series: 1) Bleach. it jus rox! 2) Yakitate!! Japan(bread seems nicer these days haha) Life seems quite mono for me again..Guess thats how it is going for me...

~I will move on~

091105

2005-11-09T20:20:00.000+08:00

Took off today went fetch my mum from hospital tday. Wa was shock by the bills..5k O_O ntg to say...but if it promises a 101% recovery..guess it can't be help. Sometimes when there is the need to spend there is no point to find means to cut down. Was suppose bringsis to make her ic. Guess both of us were shagged so she will be the one going alone. Sorry sis =p. Wun be coming back tml as tml on duty. Oh ya this wkend i on standby for recall manning. Lucky we givien 4 hrs prior activation. So it means i still can go out if i want to. PLaces available to me are cwp, town( i can go back camp via dhoby ghaut then transfer here and there. ) but activities not valid to me are movies, sleeping(argh) . Guess thats ok wid me. Lucky goblet of fire is on next week. I wanna watch that!!!

The happiest people don't have the best of everything. They just make the best of what comes their way.

sian

2005-11-07T20:56:00.000+08:00

Sigh..going back camp soon after 2 wks break...guess it was fun and enjoyable..get to wake up late..go out wid frens... it almost feel too good to be true!=p
Mum fell down tis afternoon at her workplace..hope its nothing serious...she now in mt. elizabeth hospital with dad and sis...her right hand kind of fractured...so hope everything is ok.
I'm also worried abt my cousin, currently sec3 but dunno its it exam pressure he kind of very pressured..till he dun know what is he doing. Sigh...think next week will try visit him...

{-This is enough. No more bad news please.-}

Kuro-san?

2005-11-06T02:52:00.000+08:00

Hiya guess the first thing u notice is i removed my midi..guess i am irritated by the sound of it lol. Anyway i really spent today tidying my room! yeah! It looks abt 80% ok on the outside i guess and it is still very messy in my cupboard..i will try to tidy up..slowly...ya..
Anyway i hang up my new poster today..had it plastic-ed and blu-tack on my wall...yeah so cool~guess after my room is tidy up to 90% i will start decorating my room maybe....ah~ the sense of achievement!!!!!!

~What can you protect with feelings alone?~

tick tock

2005-11-04T01:47:00.000+08:00

Hmmm...4 more days and my leave is over..time sure flies..considering i almost finish 1 yr liability, in a blink a new year is creeping near and every kind of thoughts is rushing to my head now. Well i guess there is still 1 thing i need to do these few days...thats to tidy up my room! well guess i failed to do so a couple of hours ago..need to put in more motivation for it the next round...guess at least if i do it i feel some sense of acheivement eh? Lacking motivation objectives and achievement in my life i guess...sometime guess i need to be more hardworking eh?
~Its Not Easy To Be ME~
[ Searching for my memories~ it feels empty in me now ]

ouch

2005-10-31T00:47:00.000+08:00

Last fri went out with shuyin vanessa and khoon to heeren, was suppose to meet them at 5 but i had to go physio so i was delayed by half an hour. Went there was kind of surprised, khoon look the same, sy had her hair cut and vanessa had her hair permed(thou she told me b4 but too long never meet so was still surprised) but anyway i just got my new specs that day so ya i was looking somewhat different also. Went to erm some shop in heeren for dinner( erm paiseh old liao cannot remember the name), i ordered 'balls of fire' sphagetti haha..but somehow my serving compare to sy and vanessa looks little ( i feel cheated). Talk cock awhile but mostly i was the listener ( as always) after that sy wanted took neoprints but somehow we decide went esplanade. It was my 1st time there( seriously) and hmm looks not bad. Went took pics and pics and even ended up in the basement of the esplanade near the carpark, i could have sworn at least notice 1 pair of eyes starting at us but somehow it feels fun. And i got my head hit by a flat tv. Ouch! i was trying to rearrange the sofa back but guess i was too kind or kapoh eh? Anyway still somehow i guess the company of friends works great :)

OCt 24

2005-10-24T23:20:00.000+08:00

2 weeks break! today went out with kelvin to westmall. Haha so fortunate he on leave too went to watch transporter 2. thou we both haven watch 1 thou haha. And both of us were like dunno wad to do cuz we really dunno. 2 guys going out sure dunno wad to do haha.

Which Made me kind of empty now i guess. A feeling i couldnt describe it just feel like a black hole..sucking everything out of me., draining me dry. A feeling that make me want to find someone else, whom i can talk to and feel comfortable with. Well i guess thats kind of impossible for me now thou. Now in ns plus i dun have much activities outside, most impt thou i yearn for the feeling guess i am already void of it now. ! year plus or 2 years? I don't exactly remember.. Well i will still move on... I hope..

oct18

2005-10-18T20:16:00.000+08:00

Konichiwa! Ikkaka des ka? Hehe.. Long time no blog reason being kind of lazy to do so...Lets just say i find my current life boring and nothing to blog..well good news! My ic is back! yeah no more store ic for me! Currently now learning some basic jap from my mp3 player...hehe cuz manage to find audio book for beginner jap...actually thats the only thing i can find thou..lol only just started listening yday...so ya think thats the update for me now...and ya i having 2 wks break starting this sat onwards..so anyone if reads this blog wants to ask me out please do so..hehe

sep 27

2005-09-27T20:30:00.000+08:00

Hiya! Long time no blog...just lazy i guess...today's weather so hot! haha Thats the only big complain i wanna complain lol...in camp no aircon have to blast fan at myself..woot 1 more ppl i know in camp liao...total now: 1 pri sch fren 4 scss frens(1plant 1 survey 1 alpha 1 39sce) 1 jc fren(survey)....world is so small lol...

sep18

2005-09-18T02:18:00.000+08:00

Haha its 2 plus midnight and here i am blogging hehe.. Came back home sat morning as fri was on duty...next sunday 1 more regimental duty so went sembawang library borrow some books so i can kill time on sunday..anyway signal bunk has a tv so most likely i guess i will be there for sometime hehe...haha the last time i went sunshine plaza at sembawang was sometime ago...but that time had the error with security sensor at shops kind of being condemn outside shops for no reason >_< haha at least today normal. Was checking up some stuff i kept in cupboard and came across some photos i kept. Honestly, i seldom took pics cuz i feel i not very photogenic and kind of surprised to see those old pics of myself looking ok hehe. Anyway what i have are very limited comp has some jc pics of class 03s20 and those pics i saw were from jc 1st 3 months bbq, haha i quite sua gu de tt was the 1st bbq i went =p but i enjoy quite alot from the fun i had with them. haha one of the things i still can rmb..doing pj dance at park haha kind of lame but fun..haha so sorry old liao always think of old fun i had haha or maybe in camp quite boring? haha maybe that also.. LoL...

sep 15

2005-09-15T19:36:00.000+08:00

Haha took half day off for today morning, took the extra time to finish watching date with vampire 3... yeah~ Noon went back camp to go stagmont camp which is the camp near pjc. Haha was so happy to pass by school again, memories start to flow back into me again.. Mixed feelings but was really missing the place. Think its the past thats why it is always so memorable. Dismissed at 4 plus went lot 1 haha, kind of had some shops shifted but generally lot 1 is still lot 1. Saw mooncake booths at lvl 1..remember sometime last year lot 1 also set up similar booths..haha 1 year plus but still can remember haha...oh ya laser flair shifted up to 3rd floor wonder why shops in lot 1 like shift so much...haha

sep 13

2005-09-13T20:59:00.000+08:00

Last sunday went to orchard with bee chee jh ss mj and jeff..haha only went there to makan and to as a double celebration of me and jeff bday....anyway went to fish and co.... although i know bdays are always a good reason for catching ups...and indeed kind of quite enjoy myself in their company...hehe maybe just a little disappointed that this yr nv received gifts from frens but at least appreciated that i am still being remembered... after tt we went apple shop...saw huiting, someone from swiss, working there...haha always nice to see someone familiar. Quite surprised by new ipod nano oso...wah really quite small nia...haha after that went to dbs bank for bee and mjwithdraw some money...haha we took some photos juz at atm machine...haha with 6-7 security cameras at us and we took 3-4 shots haha kind of weird place to take pics...haha waiting for chee to send me....memorable day for me...quite some time since the last time i smile so heartily...

sep5

2005-09-05T23:51:00.000+08:00

Been home for 3 days since sat...went northpoint earlier on to check out tv serials...wa never realise they selling 50 plus to 60 for 1 box....thats around 1/7 of my pay and still its only box 1. T_T...wanna watch xian jian qi xia zhuan and date wif vamp 3...ch 8 showing but i kind of no time watch...unless i buy portable tv bring in watch...dunno i wanna buy sia...like abit waste lei...

happy bday to me

2005-09-04T00:22:00.000+08:00

I turned 19!!! Glad to know at least still some peepz rmb my bday =) 18 years of my life past liao...Wo3 ren4 shi4 de3 peng2 you3 bu4 duo1, but at least thankz to them w/o them i will be writing a blank piece of paper instead. Haha at least sis bought me a new wallet, thkz alot haha. So 1 bday pressie is better than none. I rmb someone told me going thru ns will make us more mature...i kind of differ...more like drastic changes will change a way how people think. Haha maybe the thought of me 1 yr older kind of has many thoughts in mind now...haha also dunno how and what I am thinking now..but juz feel kind of heart wrenching...like something is missing...guess i really miss laughters...friends gathering together after school, staying back in sch playing magic cards...going friend house play bball , having a meal outside together before going home or thinking abt the crush i once had...all seem so far..haha really old liao.... =p at least by 1 year. Hehe...

...

2005-08-25T23:08:00.000+08:00

Hiya! haha finally can rest after one busy and troublesome week full of headaches at times and plenty tiredness each day! haha really a busy week with my ns stuff...so many things to settle but at least most of them are resolved. Yday was on duty and so poor me dept had free nights off and kinda like doing weekend duty...so little people. haha but partially due to reasons that most of camp people are flying off to thailand for exercise this sunday and they are clearing offs. Next week onwards camp almost like 'ghost' camp le..haha but my dept most of them staying back..so ya...still ok...can't complain much that maybe more duties than usual due to lesser manpower. But just hope that no duties for 1st week of sep. Sep4 's my birthday and i apply leave on sep 5 and 6...just wanna to relax once in awhile. Anyway if time and mood permits, will blog if possible. Tommorow going see specialist in morning and took off in the noon..haha so happy can rest 1 free day...yeah~

Weekly post?

2005-08-19T17:24:00.000+08:00

Haha long time no blog..kind of lazy cuz too many things happen. Most boring first, busy with ns stuff...haha sometimes really busy till stress alot then no mood do any thing else. Just plain tired hehe...
Monday had free nights off..went to northpoint alone to walk..has been quite awhile since i last been there. Not too many major changes from last time i went but still ok. Went comics shop buy some new comic call 'suzuka' chinese is liang2 feng1. Not the kind of fighting stuff but more of a novel story type. Kind of like the storyline, first few books kind of give me some flashback of what i did and how i feel in jc period towards someone.The feeling of how someone's emotions can affect people at times is so amazing. At least i had the courage to tell her at that time.Haha kind of make me feel old now thou. Anyway thats past history so i kind of stop dawning on it. Sometimes thinking about the past always give good and bad memories but no matter what i don't want time to turn back. Not to say i am very happy with the present but the mentality that if you always wants to redo what you have done will only makes you unhappy towards the present and the future.
Past by ts vcd shop also. They having sale of old shows. Bought 2 pieces to watch , Anna in kungfu land by Yang Qian Hua and Honesty by Ren Xian Qi. Haha going to watch maybe later or tomorrow.
Today went Amoy Quee camp at yio chu kang for some will to fight. I only went there for the morning as got medical appointment at 3. They played high element, flying fox and spider web. I only join in at spider's web, was wanting to play flying fox but back has been aching since last Fri and kind of sprain my leg on wed so i skipped that. Went off at around 12 and on the way went sun plaza at sembawang. Haha place is still small but seem to be more stuff that i last went there. Bought suzuka 5 and 6, went library borrow some books and went there for lunch and a small treat for myself- Coffee bean ice mocha. hehe....But i was kind of irritated by the sensor alarm u seen in shop(imagine popular front door those sensors) ya..i don't know whats in my bag that keeps triggering off those alarm and i kind of have to stay out of those shops sobx.Went sembawang music store trigger went off...comics connection went off again then almost wanna step into a shop but the sensors stop me again.Haix...so unlucky. Must empty my bag contents later to see what stupid stuff is triggering off the sensor alarms. =\

saddddd

2005-08-14T00:17:00.000+08:00

Friday was healthy lifestyle day for our camp. Basically is many engineers unit gather together for a run and we are in charge of rations. Woke up at 3plus in the morning supposedly 4.30am start work but it started raining at 4 and no choice, got soaked in rain for abt 2 hours. Was drenched from head to toe but luckily didn't fall sick. We split into 3-4 grps in charge of diff stuff...poor back..aching til now nia >_< ...waiting for off rewarded now...hehe

gwe

2005-08-10T19:36:00.000+08:00

Went to some marina carnival today by camp's event. haha at first thought what kind of event i suppose to go from camp's instruction..some family day...its more of many saf units gathering to showcase their stuff...haha 1st time saw fire engine so close...too bad i never get to go up their ladder =p....saw combat ambulance oso..hehe not bad...facilities quite good...but erm lets hope thats the only time i see it...don't wanna be inside it as a patient... oh saw parachuters quite up close also...too bad if taken on camera so small and not tt nice on pic...but cool...and fighter planes and helis...haha quite impressive...but still thats all that is fascinating to me haha still alot stuff but don't seem to interest me alot....

going back camp later le...busy days are here again...

Aug 9..

2005-08-09T22:34:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday singapore! haha aug9...40th for singapore... was watching ndp parade on tv juz now..1 word 'wow!' lol fireworks was fantastic...too bad i not there...show was not bad..kind of really make me think how much singapore progress in these years...1st time watching show as a nsf..i salute e participants! they really put in alot of hardwork tt only can be seen from their performance. And not to forget the behind scenes crew..regardless backstage crew usherers pa system operators and even those in no.4 standing there as 'station'...Well those saf personnel hu participated..i see alot of off and off in-lieu coming your way..haha

so fast my 'break' ending...kind of still feeling empty...at least a break from work still makes me alot better thou....hmmm need take deeper breathes~

wu fa zhi shi pu tong peng you..

2005-08-08T20:02:00.000+08:00

Went out to westmall with qiugui to watch charlie and chocolate factory tday, was suppose to catch 1230 show but kinda 4get tday all schools half day, alot ppl catching tt show. And when i say alot really alot loh..12 plus bought tickets and we are already sitting in centre...245 was showtime went walk around walk walk awhile..which reminds me..songs i need to find later..

Show itself was not bad...but somehow comparing to the book its feel kind of short, too fast end le its like story moves on moves on and before u know it. The end. I don't exactly remember willy wonka but johnny depp as willy kind of find him not a weirdo but more of i find him very sad. Really pity his past. Although the flashbacks kind of alot and way of movie playing is kind of onward and backward onward and backward..haha maybe i try reading the book again but abit weird to go children section borrow >_<

Yday night slept at 3...after show effect was very bad, on the train was yawning throughout and i can't believe i accidently trip on my jeans to fell and hit my lower chin, its still pain now..went to rest at 6 plus but was woken up by dad at around 8. Now still yawning but think i wait till later night then sleep again le..

12.25am post

2005-08-07T00:23:00.000+08:00

Went out to lot1 to celebrate charlene belated bday...was suppose last week meet up but alot ppl not free postpone tis week then venue keep changing oso. In the end went lot1, arrive half an hour earlier realise compare to last year lot 1 look alot different lei...thou still small too fast walk finish haha..kena ps by ss chee jh and jeff..no one came only me and beehar and i was like o_O i'm the only guy...but didnt stay there for long...bee and char got programme to do later so after meal all left le..haha tt was really fast

was suppose meet up sy to return her money on fri in the end she postpone oso..anyway went cwp to look around san4 san4 xin1...haha think i have to try avoid cwp liao kind of boring...maybe next time i can go northpoint or sun plaza...hmmm...haha or if i can find ppl plaza singapore will be good...the tou hua near there is fabulous plus anime collector shop there...wahahaha...

my unoffical break start liao....til aug 9...hehe oso dunno wad i gonna do...tink rewind is the word ba...doing anything else that is unrelated to ns is good enuff for me...gonna go sleep le...soooo tiredddd

busy busy

2005-08-02T19:21:00.000+08:00

Hiya 2 days haven post things here and its like ages...haha maybe its busy for me in camp doing all the store work. Busy days...and strange thing is that one ns friend say i not looking stress and i was like really? haha guess i dun put too much emotions on me at times =p ...

Monday night was horrible. Was feeling too bored!!! Haha i can't really stand loneliness and sadness but when if too many people around i kind of feel left out also...haha i quite picky right? haha..thats why normally best if 2 ppl or 4 ppl if going our.... Around 10 plus was really feeling terrible from boredom and i started mass sms night msg to ppl w/o seeing the contents...haha and guess wad? Kelv reply saying abit gay...haha opps sorry....i only read the msg after i sent...but at least was feeling better...after that had the weirdest dream... Dreamt of some stupid story that is totally unrelated to me, unrelated to what i am doing and i don't even know of anyone in the dream. Revolves around Liang Jing Ru's song: Yong Qi? Sounds lame right? haha must be the last song before i concuss hear this song and that explain the dream.

Tues was quite busy with store stuff as usual and was hoping to go home to download some anime series to relax myself..sobz none out yet...gonna think of other things to do le...

hmmm...

2005-07-31T00:44:00.000+08:00

Hmmm...was actually too lazy to blog but i just realise something I kinda change. Maybe during the one month my comp was spoilt i kind of did some serious thinking.I realise that my attitude kind of change and hopefully its for the better. I started cracking jokes again. Doesnt sound too big a change right? Truth is i haven feel such a way for about 1 +++ year....maybe something else was fogging my thoughts but for now i feel much better again. My priorities change. Haha what kind of priorities right? I realise there is so much things i can actually do and in fact if i have a chance again i will grab it well, dun be mistaken what i meant is my studies. I kind of too engrossed myself in anime awhile ago and i realise i not really too keen now. Games are fun also but even now i feel bored playing games for awhile. Really hope i have the chance to get into a uni and to start afresh.

Was suppose to meet shuyin tday(sunday) to return her money. lol borrowed her earphones for so long til the external casing wear out liao. So its only right i compensate some for her new earphones haha...anyway since seldom have any gatherings might as well treat her to a meal for her very very early celebration of her bday tt is on aug 15...haha bo bian dun know whether they will meet up...but most likely i predict cindy shihan they all will ask her out to celebrate so no worries.

Haha there is this movie i wanna watch...charlie and chocolate factory...hehe was a nice book i read ages ago but can still remember its a nice story. This year tink i had watch 2 movies: initialD and batman (although i know nuts about cars and not really interested in batman but since this is the fastest way to meet up wid frens so watch loh haha) . Really hope i can find people to watch the show. Another show i actually wanna see nice anot is the show Bug me not(tink tts e name of the show ba..lol) but dun really know its nice anot. Anyway, for now time to sleep...wakakaka...

part1

2005-07-29T23:56:00.001+08:00

ok for the impatient one maybe juz skip this post, think i gonna get lengthy...feeling better now at least wun get too upset for now. Just came back from the battalion dinner, today there is a change of command and co change liao. Hmmm at 1st fren scare me tot go there eat seafood but its a scare afterall. kinda went there eat abit cuz i ate abit before i went. Generally quite fun and the video was good oso...haha at least jerome's hard work not wasted lol..haha but as a group didnt had tt much fun. maybe kind of different hobbies and habits we have. They smoke and i hate smoke. They drink i dunno how to. And we dun have much to talk as not much common habits. Realise that most of the time was trying to fit into what they are talking that even after awhile I really find it tiring. I am me. I have my likes and dislikes, and i can slowly learn to like some things or try not to be to displeased about some particular things. Most likely i will be seeing them for quite some time so dun worry i kind of treat them as ns friends but not close that kind.

Had a busy day today, haha or kind of rather a busy week. All for today!! haha at least this event is over and rq has ensured us off for the hard work we did. Gonna store as many off as i can for next year as this year i must finish my leave instead. Although most of the time i been busy with my own store thou =p

K enough of ns talk...my life doesnt revolves around ns only. Hmmm sms vanessa yday night...she really has moved on quite alot. When i msg her... really don't feel its the same her when i receive her msg. maybe is because she believes in christianity now and believes it is helping her. Haha as long she is happy tts good enough, just hope her health stays good. She kind of has a weak constitution so she falls ill easily and at least maybe her mood will improve her health ba. Haha but its a relieve to me also, at least now i know that i treating her as a good friend and thats good for me. Oh no gonna talk abit of ns in it again...maybe its because ns is mostly guys... they like to ask a few standard questions:
1. When you ORD?
2. Weekend go out got go chiong(clubbing)?
3. Got a girlfriend?Haha really standard right?
So i gonna ans them all here.
Reply 1...its next calender yeah...(dec LoL)
Reply 2...no i dun chiong neither do i drink or smoke...
Reply 3...Nope.nobody wants me...LoL
hee...maybe i really like to hope for someone to just share my feelings at some point of time or to even for me to share their problems and joys. I still feel that i do not have the courage anymore. ok to be honest til now i dun have any girlfriend b4...so i dun really know how to take care of anyone either. maybe because between a friend and a lover i would most likely choose a friend for i know and i have seen most couples dun usually last as long as they had promised to one another. That is also the reason when i realise i had a liking for someone i wouldn't risk a friendship for that. Its really not worth it.But even i would do stupid things even thou i know they are stupid. Jc period maybe like what ppl say a rollercoaster, so things sometime get abit bumpy and shaky. Maybe its because my mind went into a crazy mode and my whole mind can only think of her then idiotic brain went to have a bad nightmare that make me conclude that sometime if i don't do something i will regret. Then thats it from good friends to total stranger for one year plus plus and thats when i really fall very hard. Although now at least still got remain contact and thats kind of a relieve for me. Maybe i'm just not good at handing such stuff. It takes two hands to make a clap. But maybe now.. i maybe still be searching for my other hand to make that clap.

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2005-07-28T21:14:00.000+08:00

ok anyone reading this post please ignore what i am saying now...haha acting as store ic is ok but kind of evoke alot of emotions from me. Ppl feeling stressed and kinda pissed from job but i kind of have to make them feel better. I really wonder sometime how many masks i have under me although deep down inside me i really wanna juz let everything out. The feeling of being alone. Not a very unfamiliar thing. From pri school til now, kind of no matter what I feel left out. Maybe its because i don't much of attract ppl attention. Even its in a group or unless only 2 ppl, somehow I will be left at the back. Really feeling so sad and alone in me, even though i tell myself i have to be strong but its always not easy. Heart is so fragile that it is breaking soon, and please no misunderstandings. Its not about relationships but rather about me myself. Its not easy to be me while I am hiding myself, fearing of getting hurt once again. I fell down before even though I am picking myself up from the fall, the scar left behind will stay there.

tuesday post

2005-07-26T20:23:00.000+08:00

sang nao jin ar.....haha now is store ic tt means alot more stuff and stress for me to handle....tt means i need to take deeper breaths....haha getting kind of very emotion these few days. I can crack many many jokes when I cheerful and can really get frustrated if i find things unfair. Hmmm....my temperant need to control abit liao....today really had alot of stuff to do...from morning busy til fall out...really poor thing hor... haha at least got soothing songs on mp3 to make me feel better....haha ping guan songs is e more i hear e nicer they are...getting addicted liao...anyway next month national period apply leave liao...my unofficial 5 day block leave...haha then gonna leave the next wkend after national free oso..e rest of e wkend they touch me i ok liao..haha..

long time no blog

2005-07-23T09:31:00.000+08:00

Hiya! haha long time no blog cuz my comp is spoilt. Only kinda had some time today. Almost a month since i last blog..alot of things had happened in between but i kinda opened up. This one month while i was thinking about myself...i realised i had finally let go of what is always bothering me. People move on and dwelling in the past leads me nowhere. I fell down and its time for me to climb up again. In terms of uni admission, its not like i carn try next year. Most likely I be trying smu or sim, still i will retry for nus and ntu. Ns wise haha 3/4 more to go...so no matter wad juz do wad i can and tahan til e end.Hmmm...as for relationship wise...I still don't have the courage to go for one. Haha sec sch til now looks like i only matured abit. When i finally pluck up courage last year, response was what I expected, looks like I still don't have what it takes to care for someone or to be there for anyone. Maybe I am just not ready for anything.

Shengshiuan jiahao jeff bee char chee mj yiyang qiugui yuci wenshen jinyao william chinwei , really appreciate to have you all as my friends = )

long time no c

2005-05-31T19:50:00.000+08:00

yo...has been awhile since i last blog....well partially is i kind of lazy but most importantly i don't want to put down too many negatives thoughts into here. well good news and bad news...but overall is bad news thou...good news is soon i going back to old department in camp. Work may be tiring but at least working hours are to me normal...bad news is nus has just rejected me and i kind of expected that but really hope it hadn't happen.But reality is still cruel. the likeliness of ntu accepting me has decreased to a bare minimum...Sigh....what to do....can only pray hard now..although i had thought of what to do if i really never get in but its still kind of depressing.. lets just hope that even if i have only 1 percent chance i can still get in.

;(

2005-05-14T04:52:00.000+08:00

endure for 1 month plus...i dun like e attachment to alpha as armskoteman....e working hours are just too hectic....early morning plus late night....normally finish at 7++ :( ......really no mood write anything else....this monday they going range....i have to go as well....4+ have to wake up liao....argh maybe even earlier.... T_T